Art Sanctuary - Book of Hours

DECEMBER

2007-10-28T00:25:00.011-07:00

Wor(l)ds

I've searched the sky
I've traced the contours of each cloud that passed me by
I've searched and looked and asked the stars
- where are they?
I've let my fingers play with every blade of grass
along the rock I sit and ponder on
and I have asked again
- where are they?
I've listened to the silence
late at night
when I am just about to close my eyes
and I am seeing nothing
hearing nothing
just a stillness
deep inside
I've asked the stillness also
but it doesn't answer
and so I haven't heard them
haven't seen them
and I haven't found a single one of them
- The words
that somehow could describe
express
and tell the world
what I want that the world should hear;
One soul is happy
- and another
one soul is dancing with another
and when there is Another
it means that all of this
is true
and both of us are real
and really mates
because we met on this the other side
of mirrored gates
If I could only find the words
I'd love to tell
- both worlds!

NOVEMBER

2007-10-28T00:25:00.009-07:00

Dear Wind

Tear this feeling out of me
hold it out and let the air be chilly cold and wet and
let the raindrops soak until it isn't longer bearable
then throw it!
Throw it farther than you ever did
with anything or anybody
let it spin away to somewhere I can never find it
I can't stand this feeling anymore

Let it wash ashore on distant latitudes
let it rise and walk meandering through unfamiliar landscape
let it lose itself and never find its way
let it search where noone searched before
and never let it find me
never!

- unless it finds the only one
who soothes
and calms
with waves of endless oceans rolling through me
flushing all this yearning out of me.

OCTOBER

2007-10-28T00:25:00.007-07:00

Structures

He stood and waited
as she returned
pondering a new foundation
what is otherwise the point of building
and why a fortress
when a castle can be made instead?

And tides can come and go
there's nothing stopping them
so let them flow and pass
in currents and canals
that's what that bridge is for

Splashing waves at dawn
stillness where a stormy wind had roared
she'll stand and listen
to a quiet heart that knows
that even starry constellations
have their structures
And he is hers

SEPTEMBER

2007-10-28T00:25:00.005-07:00

Ocean waves

Like ocean waves
returning
slowly
building
slapping gently
stroking
licking shores
and sliding
slipping into crevices
soothing burning surfaces
and filling caves
with freshness
Pulling out
withdrawing
gaining strength
momentum
lifting
soaring -
force and power roaring
hovering -
then crashing hard
and finding
entering
and penetrating
secret entrances
and walkways
to a hidden sanctum
deep within
the shore
And flowing rivers meet
in turbulence
and swirling
round and round
and rising
filling
all the rooms
with waves caressing
walls embracing
holding all!
for just one moment -

Then they burst
disintegrate
and waves
are taking everything away -
back into that ocean
where it all had started from

waves retrieving
one by one
each part
and lingering
a resonnance
a chord
of frequences in tune
a telling
of what was
will come again
and yet again
like waves of currents
in that sea
returning

Such is that love you bring to me

AUGUST

2007-10-28T00:25:00.003-07:00

I am

So many days
that have passed
so many weathers
so many moods
so many atmospheres and
so many you's
and nights and
embraces
and kisses
throughout
always this sweetness
this love
of ours
and always
another morning
like another blossoming rose
to wake to
and another and
another
your touch
is making me real
again and again
I am

JULY

2007-10-28T00:25:00.001-07:00

A Wider River

If I have been sitting near a babbling brook
and dancing to the happiest songs I've known
I now walk next to a wider river
quiet and clear and slow
A bottom is covered with precious stones
shaped by this endless flow
of a stream running through
and a wellspring that dwells
in a place that is deep below
And I walk through a landscape appearing at dawn
and I know it's the wonder of all

JUNE

2007-10-28T00:24:00.009-07:00

Forgotten Trails

You mustn't ask me to hurry now
I am walking through an ancient forest
my heart is running ahead of me
I follow slowly behind
treading carefully
through heather and moss
while I search
and my heart is finding
forgotten trails

MAY

2007-10-28T00:24:00.007-07:00

To Be

To be
completely still
and listen
lips that hold you breath
your inner voice
commanding me
to hold your heart
so carefully
-
My own is carried
in the gentlest hand
and kissed
each moment of the day
and night
that's why it always sings
and brings me treasures
and I can sit each morning
and be still
and listen
lips that hold your breath
your inner voice
commanding me
to hold your heart
so carefully
I feel forever blessed

APRIL

2007-10-28T00:24:00.005-07:00

Why?

I'm waking with these feelings
flying all about me
like birds
or butterflies
or both

They're making me confused
with all their fluttering
and because they are so many
all related to a future
and a past

I don't know which wing
belongs to who
and if what I see
is what's to be
or should have been
or just a ghost
of some forgotten dream

So I rise
and put my robe on
walk about on naked feet
and hold my breath
to listen
is there something I can hear
if I can't see?

Wings inside my robe
are stilling
and when I close my eyes
I feel as if I hold a little bird
inside my hand
What is it she wants
what is she saying
why am I so full of tremble
and why my eyes
so full of tears?

MARCH

2007-10-28T00:24:00.003-07:00

Mirrored Gates

I stare in wonder as a light appears
in mirror images
in ponds and even little puddles
Gates appear
and I can but walk through
remove and leave each garment as it falls
I pass each threshold
owning less
and feeling ever richer
One is for my heart to sing
my mind is dancing through the second
soaring spirit flies with ease
through yet
another gate
And yet again there is another
my soul walks slowly now
for this encounter
as silky timeless time
envelops all I am
And so we meet
on this the other side
of mirrored gates.

FEBRUARY

2007-10-28T00:24:00.001-07:00

Just because

I would move the sun
for you
just because

I would make a sky of endless Milky Ways
a universe where dreams are dancing
just because

I would make a mountain rise
and fall
if this is what you wanted
just because

Anything -
for you
to feel
that all is well
for one long moment
just because

See
what I can do
for you -
I can move the sun
through endless Milky ways
I can be that mountain
and I can sing without a sound -
just because
- because you listen

JANUARY

2007-10-28T00:23:00.000-07:00

Precious Wing

I am finding feathers
and I start to count again;
One is for one yearning heart
Two a mind combining
Three speaks to a soul that longs
The fourth is for the Time
and five becomes the mirror
where I meet myself again;

With six I shape a little wing
and seven is the flight I almost make
Eight is my attempt again
and nine the voyage that I take in Time

From far away
I see a life
that isn't quite my own
I see I lived
Became
and rose
each morning
day by day
But all around a land is wasting
someone's dreams are dying
- and everybody watches

Everybody
I forgot
and those I didn't see
who came towards me
but I never dared receive.

My funny wing is taking me
away upon a wind
I know that I must find a place
and land and rest a while
But birds breathe differently
breathe upon a feather - see!
So when I sigh
I rise!
instead of sinking

Ever higher do I fly
on this most precious wing
I see
my life
I am
my life
I see my dreams
like roses in the snow

I see a landscape
stir and shift
and change
and rearrange
and re-create
itself
again